Rainnboots' Radical Ramblings

Anonymous asked: Then let's get to bed, hon. *scooping you up and taking you to the bedroom* I really love you, baby girl. *kissing your forehead and holding your hand as I lie beside you* Don't ever leave me, okay? I love you so much... -Carlos

I won’t, Carlos, I promise. *snuggles up beside you* I love you too, darlin’.

Anonymous asked: *kisses you* I love you so much, Riley. Mrs. Carlos Pena Jr. I like the sound of that. *looking outside* It's kinda late... Would it be wrong of me to ask if I could stay the night? -Carlos

‘Course not; I love sleepovers. *smile*

Anonymous asked: *smiles back* You know what? No... We can wait. I can tell that's what you really want, baby. I'm okay with that. *kisses you* Just swear to me that... nothing, and *no one* will change your mind? -Carlos

*nods* Nothing and no one. I’m done making mistakes about you, about us. I said I was going to stick by you and by God I am going to.

Anonymous asked: *sighing* But Scott isn't God! He's just a person. He can't change anything, or control how much I love you. If you really love me to, and have no doubts about us, then please... Let's just get married. Let's just do it now. -Carlos

No, no, I know he’s not, and I do love you, I just — I don’t really want to elope in Vegas, Carlos. I kinda want to have a real wedding, with our family and friends there to see it. But if you really want to get married right now… why don’t we just go down to the court house? That’s cheaper, less time-consuming, right? *half smile*

Anonymous asked: *kissing your cheek* Riley... I'm sorry we're doing this to you. I- I wanted to... Damn it. Now isn't the time, but I was dying to ask you all day. Instead of waiting- I just... Would you be okay with flying off to Vegas with me now and getting married? I'm under contract and Scott was on my case about dating but- Damn it Riley, I love you. I'm so sorry you're hurting... - Carlos

I… Vegas? Now? Like right now? But… why? Scott won’t let us just — stay engaged like this, until we can plan something?

Anonymous asked: *running inside* Riley? Honey, you alright? Oh, Hell- *kneeling down beside you and holding you close* I saw Kendall and- Baby, I'm sorry. What happened? - Carlos

I just keep hurting people even though I try so hard not to and I’m freaking sick and tired of it.

Anonymous asked: Whatever, Riles. It's cool. I don't care. I'll live, I guess. Your *fiance* is coming. Better to make him happy, right? I'll see you around. *slamming the door* -Kendall

I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR HAPPINESS, GOSHDARNIT!

*kicks wall then sinks to floor*

Anonymous asked: *holding your arms tight* Why? Because you know, deep down, you love me too? You always have, right? Riles, please. I can't just... Riley- I don't know what to do anymore. I- *looks outside* Shit. That's his car. *sighs* I... I give up, Riles. He's gonna ask you to leave with him, and you're gonna say- Whatever. I'm gone. *turning to leave* -Kendall

I’m sorry, okay?! I’m trying to make everyone happy, I’m trying so hard, but I just can’t, Kendall! No matter what I do I’m going to end up hurting someone…

Anonymous asked: *grabbing either side of your face and kissing you* Riles, I can't- Carlos was gonna... He was gonna ask you to run away with him and just get married. L-Logan let it slip and I didn't know what to do. I can't let you do that, Riles. I just CAN'T. I know he's on his way, but- *kissing you again* Please, God, don't do it. Please, Riles. - Kendall

[And here come the stomach cramps.]

Kendall, no, no. Please don’t — Don’t kiss me. Don’t do that. I can’t…