Rainnboots' Radical Ramblings

Anonymous asked: it's okay babe, James means well, he just doesn't know when he's crossing the line. I like that you're being strong, it's one of the many things i love about you. i want you to have a fun time at your concert okay? don't fall for another band member :) i can't wait to see you and make you that soup and maybe even cuddle up on the couch and watch a movie. love you riles,-kendall

I will, and that sounds great, Kendall. I’ll see you soon. I love you, too. :)

Anonymous asked: Don't apologize. Shit happens. I just can't guarantee that we'll ever be friends. I'm sorry. - James

’S okay, you don’t have to be sorry. I understand.

I’m just gonna go now, and feel even sicker, maybe cry just a little bit because everything is always my fault…

Anonymous asked: I wish they'd never met you. Then they'd still be best friends. There wouldn't be tension. We'd be going out for a drink instead of avoiding each other whenever we could. I want things back to normal. And maybe we'll get there again. I'm sorry. I just... I'm pissed off now, okay? I'm just gonna go, before I punch a wall or something. - James

I… That’s fair, I guess. I’d probably wish the same thing, you know? I want things normal, too. I want to just be able to be happy, and have everyone else be happy, and not have to know that whenever I’m with the person I love, I’m hurting someone else. I hope things will finally be normal, at some point, and that we can be friends, too. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life knowing you’re mad because of me. I’m just really sorry I messed everything up so bad.

Anonymous asked: but he NEEDS to keep his mouth shut. it's none of his business, i'm not going to let him push you around like that, it's not what a boyfriend does.-Kendall

He’s not pushing me around, alright? I’m a big girl, Kendall. He wants to talk so I’ll talk. Nothing’s going to happen, okay? But you’re sweet for worrying. :)

Anonymous asked: Shut up, Kendall! At least I'm fucking saying something for you! Riley, I wish I could forgive you. I don't like being so angry with people, but damn it... This just isn't fair. You don't know how bad I... Never mind. I won't say that, because it's out of line. I just wish things had turned out differently. - James

No, please, tell me. How did you want things to turn out? Tell me what I could possibly do that maybe, just maybe, would make you feel any better. I don’t like knowing that I made you feel this way. I don’t like making anyone feel this way.

Anonymous asked: but now james is just putting his nose into other people's business and i do NOT like his tone with you. he's seriously pissing me off! like he has room to talk, all this shit over natalie and he thinks he has the right to say shit to you? not okay.-kendall

He’s just mad, Kendall, the way Carlos was. Please don’t start anything, okay? He’s hurt over this too, just like Carlos.

Anonymous asked: It's not just that, either. You broke his fucking heart. Snapped it in two, and stomped on it like it meant fucking nothing to you. Do you even have a clue how bad that feels? I just wish you hadn't done this to my friends. I just don't know if I can ever forgive you, Riles. Which is a shame. You were a good girl. But they're my brothers. - James

Look, I’m sorry, okay!? I didn’t want to hurt anybody. I didn’t want to have to choose. But they told me to and I did. I made a decision, like you wanted, and I did. I chose. I feel terrible but I had to do it. I don’t know what it feels like to hurt like Carlos is. If I could I would take his pain away, but I can’t do that without hurting Kendall, too. Whatever I do, I end up breaking someone’s heart. If there was another way that would avoid making people hurt, believe me, I would do it, but there’s just not.

I’m sorry. I won’t ask you to forgive me. If we’re being honest, I probably don’t deserve it…

Anonymous asked: RILEY! I do not give a SHIT who you decide to date! That's what I'm saying! Just fix this! You- Fuck, you're messing up everything! I'm sorry to say it, but I have to. I can't just sit back and watch my brothers give up everything for... this. It's not right. Things were just fine before you led them on. Please, just, assert yourself or something. Pick one and make damn sure the other gets it. Please. - James

What more do you want me to do, James?! I told Carlos that I love Kendall, and that I’m going to stick by him. How else am I supposed to show Carlos that my decision’s been made?

Anonymous asked: i'm sorry riles. i'm really sorry okay? i hope things will get better for us, carlos is sobering up in the bathroom right now. but i;m sorry for being such an ass.-kendall

It’s okay, Kendall, I just — I don’t know. I didn’t like seeing you mad, and I didn’t like seeing Carlos upset, I just didn’t really like what happened earlier. But you’re here now, and Carlos is cleaning up, so… I think we’re gonna be okay.

Anonymous asked: You know something, Riles? I really wanted us to be able to be friends. You seemed like a nice enough girl. But you're messing with my two best friends. I can't just stand here and take that. I'm so mad at you, and I don't know what to do. - James

[I’m just going to assume this is still Cody, though I feel like it could be Nat, and that we’re talking about the trolling that’s going on right now.]

I’m sorry, James. But I’m not picking Carlos; I’m sticking with Kendall. I know it seems like I’m jerking everyone around but I’m not trying to. I just… I’m with Kendall. I love Kendall. I’m really sorry I upset you, I would never intentionally do that.